Hi Erin, this is for you… ♥
I know we made so many plans and promises for the future
but I’m not strong enough to keep being in your life.
I’m just scared and sad all the time (but you make me happy, you really do)
I’m tired of thinking you’d rather talk to someone else than me and I’m tired of thinking something will go horribly wrong in the future. I just want to be happy with you and not have any worries.
But getting emails every morning that ruin my day is ridiculous and I can’t do this anymore.
I know you say no one else matters, and I’m trying to believe that…
I just… I don’t want to give up on you but I practically live in fear.
And I need someone that is going to defend me, because I have no back bone and I can’t stand up for myself.
So I don’t know what to do anymore.
I just want the pain to go away even if it means quitting the rp and being alone again.
Just maybe if I’m alone… no one can hurt me again.
No matter what happens, you will always be my best freister, my weasley twin, my kaoru… no matter what <3 I won’t forget you, and I’ll keep all the good memories. And you’ll always be one of the best things to have happened in my life, you are my everything after all.
It’s been a year and I’m surprised we’ve lasted, and I hope we can keep lasting.
Just know that I love you no matter what.
Love, Rye ♥
♥
